Change Happens Too Fast

One year ago today, I was happy and surrounded by friends and roommates who I loved and wanted to be around. I was motivated, organized and internally peaceful. I had fun on the weekends, stayed out of trouble and laughed until 3 in the morning, almost every single morning.

Now, I am confused and unsure, full of questions. I hang out with friends but not the friends I love who build me up, make me laugh and love me for who I am. I stay out too late, laugh only every now and then and find myself working harder than I am playing.

How can things change so much in one year? One year isn't that long.

This change has not left me sad because I am very happy. I am busy, doing well in school, fulfilling dreams and discovering myself more each day. I love my family more than ever, they are the most fun and satisfying people in my life. I have made new friends, built upon dreams and serve those around me.

Last night I hung out with a new group of people, most of which I did not know at the beginning of the night. I had more fun with them than I have had in a long time with a group of friends that size. There are many differences between the group from last night and the group I have been with for the last while.

These differences haven't answered my question of how so much can change so quickly, but it has answered the question to why I have felt differently about life. Life is all about attitude, perspective and gratitude. There is more to experience than what you can see, hear and touch in any given moment, I just need to open my mind and find them!